So as an update, shortly after I posted last, I was asked to two interviews! My first in months. One was yesterday and one is tomorrow. Much time was spent deciding on an interview outfit, but I managed to pick one that I felt confident and comfortable in (and thankfully the stain on my shirt was covered up by my jacket!).
I think the interview yesterday went fine, though I feel like I messed up on the last question. I was feeling really confident about the interview, lots of head nodding and writing things down from both interviewers and I felt like I came across well, though probably nervous. Then one threw out a question at the end “what scares you the most about this job?” and then…I DID IT.
I stupidly just said the first thing that came into my head, which was TRUE, but was probably not the best thing to say in that instance. I had intended to say that this was something that I personally was nervous about, that I feel it’s not one of my strengths, but that I know is mostly in my head because I’ve always been told this particular worry is not actually true about myself. I was trying to be honest and self deprecating! But one of the interviewers made a face and suddenly I felt like I’d gone into an interview for a CPA position and said ‘well I really just hate math.’ I felt like an idiot.
I’m sure it wasn’t as bad as I felt like it was and I did try to backtrack a bit, but I felt like I’d totally left a horrible impression. Unfortunately, not much I can do about it now! And to be honest, the job isn’t exactly one I’m desperate to take, so maybe it’s for the best. I have one more interview tomorrow and I’m determined not to get caught out in the end by my own stupid honesty. Who wants honesty? This is a job interview!